So Early =|

*yAwN* Sad...now i cant sleep! Wondering why first time i blogging so earli ah? Cuz juz now that insurance jie jie came to my house n asked me to sign some documents, so i had to wake up like so earli!!!! Althou its 10:58a.m. now, to most ppl its late, but to me is earli~! Cuz i need a lot of sleep! *sIgH* Luckily last night XW told me that dear wasnt feeling well n vomited. If not I dint know what happened to him. *sIgH* Why he refused to tell me he not feeling well?? *sIgH* juz like me....if I sick also I wont tell him de la! So sweet of him lo! Miss him....oh well, can see him tomorrow liao. I think I better force him to stay at home to rest than to go watch movie. *yAwN* Last night was quite fun hanging out with my WWG (Wild Wild Gang). I met 6 of them for dinner at 8:30p.m. then later we went to YP's house for a drink n talk lo. *sIgH* Realized everyone like changed so much. Feeling so sad for them, like JM n me are the onli ones that dint change lo. Like quite sad lydat! Then I realized that YP more quiet, HQ getting weird, M is like dying to have a puff of cigarette?? OMG...dunno what she is thinking. Luckily WB die die also wont give her. *sIgH* Cant wait for tomorrow to come man!! Anyways, today is gonna be a very tiring day liao lo! Belle's party then at night going to cousin's, cuz her baby's first month. *yAwN* Now i juz hope XW n dear will be fine. Next year if possible i wanna go!! Oh well, i havent brush teeth leh...HEHEHE....now going to wash my face first la! Byebye!!

P/s: Dear, hope u will be alright. Miss u so much....*mUaCk*

Jealousy

What is Jealousy? And why issit getting on me?? I really dun understand why and how the heck this Jealousy thing come to me. ARghh..that suck big time! Anyways, really like going crazy soon lo. Cant wait for him to come back and ask him so i can tell if he is lying and all. Oh well, juz gotta flux myself with activities. Thought he say he dun wanna watch Star Wars 2 days ago, but then now he like wanna watch liao....what de? I thought we have so much to catch up? ArGhhh...nvm...juz a movie onli what! How much time will that be?? Haha...ok la...Sigh!!! Oh well, maybe cuz he is not here thats why i so worried ba. But if he is here i guess i will be much better ba. Make him suffer when he comes back la! Who cares man?! Fen Ni, dun tell him about it if u read this ok?! Cuz girls must help girls! Hehehe....Gotta tell him i am not fetching him le. Let him go enjoy his time with her! ArgHHHH....byebye! Goodnight everyone!

P/s: I do miss u alot. But.......Sigh...

Busy Schedule

Oh well, my June schedule is so damn FULL! Like...really FULL! I will be leaving Sg on 7th June. Then i decided to go for a camp from 24th to 26th June, n followed by dear's chalet, from 27th to 30th June. Which stretched over his n my birthday! But something actually "pop" up today! Cuz i have to attend Mel's wedding!!! But i think i can like go to the POC from 24th to 26th then on the 25th evening i will go for the wedding then i will head back to NP for the night and 26th, PACK N HOME! Hehehe.....hmmm...anyone has any suggestion on this? Like a better idea or something? Haha!! Hmmm...now watching O.C. saw one of the that character kena caught making out with the girl by the mother! Ho Seh La! Hahaha...i was like....LOL...hehe...n he juz called me!! Hahaha...juz realized that everytime talk to him will laugh if my mood is good la. *bLeAh* =p Anyways, he promised he will pay it back for making me cry on 9th May, while i am still angry with that lo! *hMpH* who ask him? LOL....Hmmm...i nv expect my schedule to be that FULL....like nv in my 17 years of life lo! Like i usually slack, none of the month is so FULL de lo! Hehehe....dunno why i getting more n more happy liao. N yeah, juz now when he called, i told him i like dint really miss him that much liao. Like i cant even be bother to look at his pic before i sleep leh, but i am glad that he did for like almost 2 wks, looking at my pic before he sleep every night. So sweet of him le! Hehehe...I really feel so Xing Fu lo!! Hehehe..............i wan his cuddle!!! So cute n sweet....really is God's sent one =x hehehe... ok la...gtg liao! Goodnight n sweet dreams!!

P/s: Miss u so much!! Hope u dint lost any weight le!! Cuz i think i gained weight! =x hehehe....but well, who cares!? Goodnight dear, *mUaCk*

Feeling Abandon

Last night i actually cried, cuz when i tried to call my mother's cell phone....it doesnt get thru! Then i panicked! N worst thing was that i tried a few times also cannot...then i panicked n cried!! N yesterday morning before i left for my first day of attachment, it juz feel as if my mother had left me n onli left my dad n me...*CHOY* (touch WOOD!*) I am juz saying that it feels like that la. Worst still...it is like i had no one to rely on!! Like i am all alone!!!!!!!!!!! Without a husband by my side n all...Aiyoh...dun think any of u get what i am trying to say la! Wonder what he will feel after he read this...Miss him so much...hmmm....so late liao still havent call. Guess they must be VERY busy, cuz it is the last week they will be there le. If cannot finished what they had plan, that is not very cheng gong! Yeah...know that he is busy la. But i hope i will have the chance to go to all these expedition in the future. I think i will love it, althou it might be like flies everywhere, but i dun think i will mind much. Sigh, yesterday almost blackout n throw up during attachment...and today also!! Dunno what is wrong with me...hope i am alright. But both times occurs during observation of some procedure. SAD...anyways, late liao...GTG! Goodnight!

P/s: Juz hope that there will be a bright future in front of each n everyone of us.

Feeling Distant

Sorrie dear, i dint know why n when that i felt this way...juz feel that u are really really far away! Sigh...so much catching up to do n u onli come back on Monday. N i will be on attachment the next day. I might not be fetching u on 23rd May. Sigh.....DEAR, U ARE SO FAR AWAY!! Argh~~~ I HATE THIS DISTANT FEELING!!!! U gotta pay when u come back! I DUN CARE!! I am still angry with u since 9th May!! I AM STILL ANGRY!! U gotta pay double!!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....u know how i feel! Stupid cal!! Hate u ah!!! ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH....why YH have to leave yesterday n my mother have to leave tomorrow n left me all alone???? I hate this lo!!! Everyone that is close to me all not with me!!! SO ALONE!! WHY??!! So unfair!!! I WANNA GO SOMEWHERE ALONE!!! ALL BY MYSELF!!! No one should follow me!! I wanna be alone!!! But not in SG la!! Arghhh..dun wanna type le la!!!

I Actually Forgot

Wow.....actually wanted to blog for today one. But i actually forgot! Today he called me twice, once in his morning, ours afternoon. And one in the evening! So nice to hear from him...really miss him alot. Dont know what they had done over there!! Really wish i was there and experience all those...i really wish that one day i could go there like what they are doing now. If when i'm in year 3 i really got the chance i give it a shot de! Well, gotta do well in my academic grade!! Sigh, if cannot go with that one, maybe i will pay one of the semester to go to Cambodia with Primers lo. Sighhhhhh......I ENVY THEM!!! So nice to hear his voice, and now i am going to sleep soon. Hoping i could see him in my dream, or maybe we could dream of each other at the same time. It did happened to me before! And i am still waiting for it to happen again! Hahaha....hope he and XW are doing well there. Althou and maybe it is physically tiring~ I am afraid that he might not get enough sleep cuz he cant sleep? Well, gtg goodnight n byebye!

P/s: Goodnight my dear, muack! Miss u so much!!

Fun!

Woah~!!! Its so crazy today!! Oh well, been crazy since yesterday!!!!!! OMG~ i really cant believe when my mom & me go out, we really spend as if we are richies!!! Oh goodness.....really spent alot!!! I estimated like $600 plus on her & me within 2 days!! Cant believe that!!! Did some facial thing today @ JY beauty saloon, not bad, feels great~ Then later on mom wants me to buy good facial products for myself, and i told her Body Shop not bad. & i asked if she will be paying for me....then she really wanna pay for me sia! I was like ---> "are u crazy??!!" HAHA....spent so much yet still wanna buy some more. Then i told her maybe June then buy lo! LOL....watching recorded AMI... missed a few episode!!! Goodness.... YES!!!! Anthony FINALLY OUT!!!! FINALLY!!!! How wish he can exchange anwar back!! I miss voice man!!!! Wahh....really enjoying myself even when dear is away. Not bad...thats me..haha...heard from him that their sleeping places got alot of insects!!! My fear factor!!! Hahaha....too bad for him la!! OoPs... *bLeAh* HEHEHE.....Sigh....actually miss him so much~ Juz receieved his call....reminded him to call his mom than to call me so often! Sigh...his mother juz called.....she asked "how come my son always call u, dint call me?". Eh...& i replied "i dunno.". Like DUH!!!! I really dunno!!! Like i feel so bad!!!

P/s: Dear ah...CALL UR MOM!!! I feel so bad that u like call me only most of the time! I dun wanna get blame leh!!!

He Called

Last night i finally slept well, guess i'm juz too tired already. Today was really unexpected, he called me around 7:00pm lydat....then i guess he was somewhere along the road side as i heard vehicles engines~ So noisy! Hardly even heard his voice...first thing he said to me was "Dear, i miss u so much!!". I was like enjoying myself the whole day cuz i went out with my mom, so i replied "I had a great day!!". HAHA...sounds very bad of me, but i like it! Actually thought of calling him later in the night, but well...he called first. Really Xin You Ling Xi....then i smsed XW so that he could see my sms. Juz hope he will enjoy himself first, whatever the prob is i will settle with him when he is back. His first trip, i dun wanna ruin it! I am very nice de lo!! Its his Fu Qi to have me ok? *bLeAh* =-p HEHEHE...after he saw my smses he called me again from his friend's cellphone. So i told him i miss him too....i really cant wait for him to come back make it clear over some things. Hope things will be fine.

P/s: Love u dear...miss the connection we had...still having, but u are not with me.

Sleepless Nights

Since sunday night i havent been sleeping well...i tot i can dun miss him. But i cant...sigh...onli 2nd day he go. Oh well, will get use to it de. Anyways, i am juz angry with him....still thinking if i wanna go fetch him. Sigh....loads of things waiting for me to do this week. At first tot i have a lot of time to rest...but now...i dun think so le! So tired....well...this morning i dint expect him to call me, but when i asked him that question...he hesitated. Well, if its true or he lied...he cant dun think of touching me for the next 1 mth or 2...i am juz worried n miss him badly. I know he will too...sigh. Should not think about him so much...live like i'm single for these 2 weeks!!! Haahaa...i think i really dun care le la!! He will get it when he comes back!! Should not even think about fetching him at all!!! Lala.....well, sounds bad la. Hey Fen Ni, saw this yea can add me in msn? My email is spicegirl_2002@hotmail.com

Too Tired

Hey, sorrie so many days dint update. Cuz i am way to tired to update it! Supposed to update last night but i dint, TAI LEI LE!! Hahaha...Yesterday i juz came home from the BB retreat camp~ And it was really FUN!! Well...i realized that i am in 2 commitees and 1 SHS student mentor thingy. But i like all of it...and now i have to choose to quit WWW then i will have more time in doing all those things! Hehe....that means no extra income! =x SAD!!! I am so tired!!! Dunno what else to say....anyways, he is at my house now. Watching all the recorded dramas!! So nice~ cant wait to go HK to have fun and shop!!! Now the attachment is juz draining off my energy lo!! Anyways, he will be going to Sri Lanka expedition next week liao....gonna miss him alot! Sigh...gtg liao la...update again some time soon!

P/S: Alan, if u read this do gimme a call. Thanx!