Chinese New Year (CYN)

Boring, second day of new year and i am doing nothing but staying at home with dear dear!! OMG...cant believe that, and mummy she is opening her stall!!!! *ArRrGgHh*........So weird lo...I am so fine when mummy said she dint want to go to aunt's house. It doesnt matter to me, but what i actually felt weird was that mummy actually open stall...OMG....Dont know what to say la. Then dear dear also dint go Bai Nian. Dont know why la...He had been staying over night at my house so recently and i felt bad about it cuz its new year and he dint go home lo. *SiGh* He is so sweet, all he want is to see me......Anyways, i going out to have my dinner liao..byebye!!

Reunion Dinner

Yo...had my reunion dinner earlier on. But sad... daddy is in the hospital still. He had a epilapsy on Tuesday. Really dint expect that to come at all...*SiGh* Felt sad that daddy cannot have reunion dinner with us. Went to CGH to visit him juz now. His hand is swollen!!! *ArRgGh*...But luckily he dont feel pain or neither is there any burning sensation....*PhEw* And poor thing, he is once again NBM!!! OMG!!! Heartached to see my daddy with NG tube, I/V N/S!!! *SiGh* Tears dropped, i've seen so much. I felt sad too even if its not my daddy, and it hurt so much to see ur love one in hospital............anyways, gtg! Byebye!!

P/S: Happy Lunar New Year everyone!!! May everyone have a good year ahead and collect abundance of Ang Pao!!

What Is Wrong

Hey, i got one major qns to ask to all the ladies out there!!! Do you ladies really think that you wanna get married & give birth in the future? Think before you answer!!

For my answer is NO! I used to think that i wanna get married & have a happy family kinda stuffs. But now...it juz turned me off totally!! You see, to me getting married & giving birth are such a major responsibilities. And i dont think i wanna take or have that. Getting married means that u gotta commit urself to only ONE man. If u are single BUT attached, u dont really need that, u know? And LOVE is a very serious matter, cuz when someone love u, he/she will do anything for u. It is like literally ANYTHING!! Which is terrible...juz imagine that u have a gf/bf that love u so much and going crazy over u each day without failed for the rest of his/her life, and planned to even get married and have kids with u. But u end up realized that u dont wan to get married and to have kids, how are u going to put that across to him/her?? Confused? U gotta find answer for yea own mess...

Giving birth??? For me the most i can give in is to get married and NO FURTHER! Get married, and ADOPT child. NOT giving birth!!! Cuz its a NO situation, NO bargain or anything, if my husband/bf wants this.. i will be happy to tell him to get another woman!! And leave me alone and stop bothering me about giving birth!!!

*SiGh* Recently i also felt kinda depress, stressed up and stuffs, thinking about my future and the possibility that i will be forced and be put in a situation whereby i have to do things that i am so unwilling to do. But for the sake of what?? For the sake of someone that love me?? And at this moment i dunno know what is love about. It is like what i am doing now is juz like finding a man that love me so much and that would take good care of me and our children in order to have a wonderful family???? Doesn't this sound so familiar to u?? Why do every man and lady wants to find a wonderful gf/bf?? Cuz they want someone whom willingly to bare child for them and taking care of them?????? Is it that all of us have to do that Human Cycle thingy once we are brought onto this earth??? I dont know myself, i am lost, confused and searching for my answer. Different people may have different views, many may said that "Yes, we have to do the Human Cycle thingy.", while many may say "No, it depends on individuals.". So what now??? Can my answer juz drop from the sky or may i have to accept the way life will be or would be??

-=Thinking=-

Model Wannabie

I think i am going crazy about modeling man!! Watching VS's show & ANTM it makes me feel so much of wanting to be one of them!!!! Thou i may not have the body, but i got what it takes to be one of them!! Like i know how i should pose, cat walks, expressions & etc... Yeah!!! I can do it!! Somehow i really hope i was born some one else someone that is not a chinese but a blondey or brunett with altered genes!! Actually all ang mos genes are altered!!! Hahaha...unbelieveable right?? Yeah, thats what i heard of!!! Hahaha... Well, who cares after all??? They look great dont they?? Anyways, gtg...wanna cont' with my modelling dream!!!!

Maid Is Juz A Maid

Yeah, wanna know what happened yesterday? Well, maybe Jo said it right about my maid, she is not that good afterall. Very bitchy instead.
Yesterday i realized a lil' diff about her, but i didnt ask. Cuz i was in a rush to go out. After i left the house i realized i forgot about something, so i decided to went back while i was only at the lift there only. So i went back, and i saw her crying. I was like..what is wrong with her? She told me that i gave her alot of work to do and stuffs! Well, i told her those that i asked u to do one can take your time to finish it before CNY. But i dont know what de fuck she heard me saying, and think that i wanted her to finish all the work by weekend. I tried to comfort her, but it dint work and she threaten that she wanna tell the agent ( like i scared)..well, cant be bothered, dear was waiting for me in the rain to fetch me to watch movie. Kept horning to rush me~ Then my maid asked me to go... So i left.
Well, i tot she will be fine after that. But no....she went DTE told my mom about it and all. So my mom called. I told her this afternoon she went to United Square to send food to my sis. So she was like gone for 5 hours (to & back journey). Then she told my mom that i gave her so much work and other than that, she have to rush here and there for my mother and my dad's lunch time. Blah blah blah.....and hello~~~ she went off to United Square for like 5 bloody hours~~ so many things can be done within this hours! Why cant she juz tell my sister that she cant go? Well, cuz she wanna go out walk walk and now complain empty promises to my mother...STUPID MAID!
My mom called me few times juz to talk about this matter, well, i cried too, cuz i was angry and fustrated! Cuz i dint do anything lo~ And later at night mummy called again this time she told me that the way i asked her to do things like asking a slave lydat! WTF??? I didnt at all...and fuck her mouth that she dare to say i did that while i always said THANK YOU after she did something for me. Isnt that a big bitch??? OMG....Cannot stand her! Well, if she wants she can go off.. i cant be bothered. Someone out there will do this matter of taking care of my dad and the house work.
Oh yeah, about me asking her to do alot of work thing? Its bullshit from her~ Even thou i did asked her to do alot, but i dint give her any date line ok? Like she can take her time to do as long as its before CNY can liao. And all those chores i asked....are for the whole family. Not me alone! Last time no one asked my ex maid to do anything at home so she becomes lazy, and now i did i am blamed for "torturing her". Yeah, is that what a person get when that person is juz thinking about the whole family??? And also i asked her to handwash my clothes, it is a week laundry that i asked her to wash for me one. Well, i see no wrong lo. Cuz the whole weekday she did not like handwash my clothes lo...BITCH...said i give her alot of work??? Bitch... i will not give in to her. If she wanna argue about this..HAHAHA...she will get it lo. Oh yeah, if she was refering to the curtains i asked her to wash is too much (I dont think so, so is my mom). Cuz i told her to take her time to wash as long as it is done before CNY and she had like 10 days before CNY when i asked her to do.
Well, she is dumb to bring down everything at one time and wash together. Cuz i told her to take down one set a day to wash and then put it back so she wont felt like that is alot. But she dint take what i said and do it her way. Blame who? Her stupidity lo.....And u know what? She broke my fav bowl yesterday morning and accusing me back that i "Ill-treated" her? What on earth is that man~~ Is there some justice on this earth? She should try going to those family that ill-treat their maids one then she know... LOL...Dumb ass!! Gtg byebye....

Angry

Yooo...now me & Jo in eplaza, dunno doing what la...me trying to study but ended up typing this bloggie le~ What de? In 3-4 hours time i will be having my BCLS theory! Frightening....hopefully i can pass la. *SiGh* Stupid dear, juz now dint sleep then now cannot come acc me study. I DONT LIKE HIM, always like that de leh. Pre-discussed things then ended up changed the whole sequence de leh!!! Very sickening de lo. Dont know why he everytime lydat de. I was hoping for him to acc me study, now i doont know who to hang out with so decided to stay with Jo... *ArGhhhhh* Qu Si La~ So alone.......Wish me luck ok? *SiGh* Better go study now...byebye!

Genting Trip

WoAhhhh~~~ I AM BACK!!! HAHAHAHA....its so so so fun man!!! The coolest part was that it had a indoor & outdoor themepark!!! Yeah, in & outdoor!! HAHAHA.....it is more than 10 years since the last time i went there liao. And back then i was so so so so young. I got nothing to do at all! Dear also got go with me le, cuz mummy asked him to go de, why? Cuz mummy said after she go into the casino then nobody play with me liao. So she ask dear to go along together lo. Hehehe.... I had a great time with him. Both of us play until crazy at the outdoor themepark sia! Cuz its really very very fun lo! It is way better than ESCAPE ah!! And some more the ticket is the same price with ESCAPE lo! HAahaha....ESCAPE sucks sia!! But he is such a pig, sleep so early all the time sia! Sickening! But well, he really take care of me...lovely person le!
On the last day we travel down to KL to look at Chi Chong Gai...heard alot about the place but first time i was there! Nothing much actually, cuz it look exactly like bugis street sia. Except that they got cars going thru the street nia. Hahaha....well, we dint really buy anything la, only dear managed to get a pair of shoes & 3 dvd game le! Hehehe...very fun! I love him! Dear made this trip more enjoyable for me le....hehehe....well, with my mummy also as fun, but she is in the casino most of the time le...gtg liao la! Late le!! Byebye!!

So Excited!

Yoyo....i am going to Genting tonight!!! Yeah!!! So excited le!!! Finally get the chance to go somewhere away from sg with mummy liao!!! I've been waiting for this man!! The last time i went overseas with mummy was like at least 10 years ago??? Estimated lydat la.....I am really happy and excited about this trip, hopefully it will be fun, yeah? Hahaha....friends, pls do not miss me! I will be back in 3 days time le! Hahaha....love yea all!! I gtg now! bye bye!!

Happy New Year!!

Yoooo.......juz now i went to ECP highway to watch the 15mins fireworks for new year count down. Hehe...very nice, but my poor mummy was at Downtown East there selling things. She worked whole day liao, then me so Bu Xiao Shun dint go help her. *SiGh* Cuz got my dear around. Sorry mummy.....she really very poorthing lo, ppl all count down she still working lo. Hopefully one day mummy can also go count down with me le. Ok, back to the fireworks, it was really great man!! For an instant the whole ECP highway stopped for like 15mins for the fireworks!! *SiGh* Another new year and one year older liao, how i wish i will always stay at 18 and wont grow up anymore! ArGhhhh....anyways, gtg liao, very late le...byebye!!