Confused.....

Hey....long time since i last blog? Sigh...i really dunno what to do now.... After knowing my colleagues from my new work place, i was so happy to have them . Then we all spent alot of time together....enjoying each others' presence...and have fun with each and everyone of them...i was so happy and glad to have known them. But since the day i know them until now...like alot of thing happened....and 3 of them said that i had changed....like...the way i behaved was like...the things i said and the things i did is different...and i dunno why...sigh.... Maybe i am lydat....but i really dunno...MJ and JO agree...which was due to my ex-bf....which was so long ago thing.... But maybe it is juz me lo...i said liao and cant remember what i said...and when things happened i juz do what i think was appropriate?! I dunno...i really dunno....and i asked my bud who was the 3rd person and he thought all i care was that?! Partially i care about that...cuz i have my reason...not to hate anyone else...but for another person ok?! And i dun think u need to know....i wanna know what was it that u guys are refering to...i wan to...is u dint wan to tell me about it, not that i dun bother about it!!! Sigh....maybe i should never expect anyone to accept the way i am...sigh.....really niave of me...really..... Maybe my poly and secondary classmates do accept it but doesnt mean other ppl will too...sigh.... And i thought and expect that my bud will understand that i need sometime away from u ppl...but i dun think he understand that.....really dun think so.......i am hurt and also disappointed.......not onli u.......